Sunday, 21 September 2014
Get Healthy Weeks 3-6 :My Struggle
With Slimming World, you are allowed 15 syns, and so you can have naughty treats, like biscuits and cakes but the minute I eat one, I want another and another. So I stopped having my syns and now I am just craving EVERYTHING. The week I was poorly with my arthritis I did put 1 and a half lbs on, which was devastating to me and I really felt like I wanted to walk out of class and never come back, but my friends in class all persuaded me to stay and our consultant Nikki, really tried to reassure me, that sometimes gains were in inevitable and that I just needed to try and get back on track and keep going.
Last week, I lost one pound and so my total loss in 5 weeks has been 7 and a half pounds, which isnt bad, but is not good either. It is so hard, when you know you need to lose the weight but inside, part of you just wants to go back to the old me, and enjoy food again. Deep down, I am not sure I can carry on with this diet, but I will try as I know I have to do this for my health but I still miss my Greggs cakes, and baguettes and cheeseburgers, and curries. Yes, the meals I have been cooking were really nice and tasty but they dont compare to my old meals.
I wish there was a magic machine that could get rid of all the weight, so I could eat normally again but that is not going to happen.To think I have got to be like this for the rest of my life is so depressing to me, food is a constant battle in my mind and I feel like I am torn in two every day, deciding whether I can conquer the food demons that constantly surround me. I guess it is just a case of taking it minute by minute, hour by hour and just trying the best that I can.
Well, that is my post for today. I will try to be better at posting my diet journey weekly, and if you have any tips for me to help me, please let me know in the comments below, any help would be greatly appreciated.
Love and Hugs.